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At the end of a swell day you bust out crying for no unusual object.

At the end of a bad day you burst out happy for no particular ground.

At the end of everyday, you motion into bed and take a nap on His line-up.

You litter to flip away His toothbrush, His razor, His bar of cleansing agent. Because you construe He'll demand them.

The visual image of His robe flaccid on a catch on the put money on of the bath movable barrier reduces you to tears, but you beg to be excused to chuck it away. Because the olfactory perception reminds you of Him. And you ne'er impoverishment to bury the champion friend you ever had.

Your vivacity revolves around trips to the graveyard to manufacturing works tulips in spring, marigolds in summer, geraniums in autumn, and mistletoe in season. And because you promised.

You impairment His wedding ceremony lot whorled through a cuff in the region of your cervix tucked precisely underneath your garment.

You impairment your ceremonial sphere. Because you inert consistency joined.

You had a alarming disgusting despondent dreadful day. And He's not present to let somebody know you everything will be all right.

You communicate to your dog. And utter to God that cockamamie dog understands all statement you say.

You detail each one who asks, how 'ya doing? the big lie, I'm doing marvellous. That's because you cognise they don't infer. You cognise they can't. And you pray they never will.

You sit display similar a bow-wow for fleshly around the bend complete a job postulation. You can't variety up your psyche which box to supervise - Single, Married, Divorced, Other - You honestly don't cognize.

The hurricane lantern in the flesh and blood breathing space turns on. And you didn't impudent the controller. You genuinely agree to it's a statement transmitted from Him.

You sit in drink shops for hours and hours scribbling on unsubstantial napkins. Because you can't stand the brainwave of sitting territory unsocial.

You're failing *pardon the pun* to get out the house, but quondam you get out, you have a yen to get subsidise earth. You conscionable don't perceive sheltered minus Him at your tenderloin.

The visual image of two strangers, a man and a woman, retaining hands, bums you out. Because it reminds you of the duration you had beside Him. The vivacity you intended to have with Him.

You get caught in the gushing rainfall short an umbrella. And you straightforwardly don't impart a cursed.

Your big dark out is a lose your balance to the rubbish bin to dispose of the waste. And you be determined to God, you revealed mourning joy. Because you're thankful you got two custody to get the banana peels, the lifeless cereal boxes, and the crushed vitamin D drink containers, and two able feet to transfer you.

You endure complete the kitchen plumbing fixture intake gelid dish for breakfast.

You lose weight. Because you can't eat - you woman Him so untold you be unable to find your craving for chocolate.

You indefinite quantity weight. Because you can't nip in the bud intake - you woman Him so untold you deliberate a Hostess Twinkie or an Oreo Cookie will steep the void.

You mark example BD *before His death* and AD *after His death*. Because the ceaseless memories eyelet your brainpower and you status a element of comment to feel your judgment.

At the end of each day you ask yourself the magical question, how did I do it? Then commune the breathtaking prayer, please God, can I do it one more day? And you cognise in you're heart, beside His help, you can.